Meaningless Words

My plan worked. Reading through your indirect message really made me laugh. You have a lot to learn, and unfortunately for people like us it takes a devastating blow to make the message loud and clear. But the truth is, I don’t blame you because what you’re doing is something I’m all too familiar with. See we push people away who care about us because we’re not comfortable expressing affection.

You instead of working to fix the issues we had between us, would run to others for attention, much worse you are the first who ran to people that I considered “friends”. But once again it’s not your fault, since you did that I realized two things. I realized that those people weren’t my friends, I reevaluated the type of personalities that I choose to associate myself with because I don’t tolerate someone giving attention to someone I care about. Which leads to the second thing, I realized after all these years the mistakes I was making with people who tried to get close to me… I took them for granted & now I spend most of my time reminiscing about the past… mostly about my 8th & 9th grade years where I lost so many opportunities all because of ignorance & immaturity. 

You were too busy obsessing over a guy who supplied you with drugs & led you away from me while I was trying to show you how I had changed.

I’m not going to blame you for not only rejecting my attention & ditching me for someone I had known for 4 years, or for having repeated sex with someone who I thought I could trust… I don’t blame you because when I was 16 I would have done the exact same…. you don’t think about things until high school is over… you realize life’s not the easy game you thought it was. All I can hope is that you read this.